"Its devotion to a cause. Single minded pure devotion. I know a little something about that remember. Or, I guess I thought I did. Doesn't matter if its wrong, you'll never believe anything different. Its an unshakeable loyalty and when you have those kinds of numbers thats not hard to maintain"
She knew this teritory, knew it well. Maybe too well. But thats what it was.
She watched him leave, laying back on the bed and resting, eyes closing, just for a little while as she waited. They opened again as soon as he returned and she sat back up tasting the coffee and nodding gratefully.
"You know how I like it" she told him, eyes widening as she realised how that had sounded outside her head "The coffee I mean...Its perfect"
She sighed.
"I'm sorry this is so hard. I wish...well, you know what I wish"