No, no she hadn't twisted Sam, Castiel was twisting things, making it sound sordid and wrong when it was anything but. It was destiny, fate. She'd just played a part is all, getting him where he needed to be. It was always going to be Sam Winchester, always.
"Thats not true...its not, I saw your faith at work, You met her, Margareta, her world was pain, and hurt and death and where was God, and then God was here and I tried, I truly honestly tried to forgive it all and I couldn't. I couldn't...God's not a presence the way he will...would have been" she amended, the words compounding her failure.
The words were hers but repeated, from Lilith and Azazel both, who told her time and time again that this was heaven, this was its purpose. But at the same time she'd fallen for an Angel.
"Do you know how disgusted they both where when they were here, the way they looked at me? Because of you? You think it wouldn't have been easier if I didn't love you, if I could have just done what I was supposed to from the time I crawled back out of hell. I'm not incapable of love, far from it, I couldn't stop myself, you saw something inside me that I'm not even sure I see. You believed I was different and you made me believe it too."
She met his gaze, almost pleadingly.
"I know what you did for me. I begged, pleaded with you not to do it but I loved you because you did. You turned your back on God for me. You have such strength, strength I can't even begin to imagine. And I'm sorry that I hurt you like this, I am. But if nothing else, please just believe that I love you. That all through this I never stopped loving you. Just give me that, tell me you understand that"