It was simple, she didn't want to see her, the human that she had once been, weak and stupid and praying to God for salvation that would never come.
She tried to go in for another kiss but she was beaten by the suprisingly soft kiss from him. No, no no. He couldn't do this, he couldn't make her like that, that wasn't fair
"Castiel I don't want to see her. Faced my past the last few weeks, why would I want to meet her?."