"I thought I could hurt them." And he'd come close until the irony of it all, the Powers That Be through Cordelia Chase stepped in and saved them. "I kind of liked it, there at the end. Being part of a team. There's something to be said for taking on the big guys, the more powerful, and bringing them down."
He'd wondered enough what would have happened if Angel hadn't kept him from participating in the final battle.
"No, I never held anything back with you either. I couldn't be with someone who wanted me to be something I'm not." He cut off another piece of steak. "I'm too set in my ways to change now."