She shook her head, tears starting to fall. "No..Sam keeps on being like Trent, blaming himself for everything...and I remember back then when I went out with him and still feel something and you're...so good to me and I feel like a horrible girlfriend!" She probably wasn't making any sense at all to him, but it wasn't like there was much that made sense to herself. "And then I tried to help Sam but he just got drunk and I should have made sure he didn't do something stupid like kill himself but I got drunk too." She covered her face with her hands, now crying full force. "I'm stupid and horrible and I don't deserve any of you, or to be a ranger. Dr. O would be ashamed of me."