Cassie Ainsworth (cadet_cassie) wrote in parabolical, @ 2008-07-06 13:17:00 |
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Current mood: | crushed |
Entry tags: | cassie ainsworth |
Who Cassie and open
When Soon after this
What Trying to clear her head
Where The park
Cassie wasn't crying, or at least that was what she wanted the people passing to think. She was ready with her usual lie of being fine, but she wasn't. She'd thought things might be a better when Chris had shown up but now she realised it only made things a lot worse. She wanted Tony here, the real Tony who knew everything that had happened and she could talk to but he'd disappeared. She hated him for that and Cassie tried really really hard not to hate anyone.
She was huddled on a bench, trying to calm down. She couldn't go home until she'd got a grip on her emotions. She'd say something stupid to Chris she was sure. She'd actually been thankful when she couldn't speak because it meant she didn't have to worry about letting anything slip to him, now though everything was just so much worse. Chris was bored, and if was bored there was no telling what trouble he might get himself into and Cassie really wasn't sure she had to strength to look after him after anymore. Maybe she should just tell him, if he knew what might happen maybe he'd be more sensible or maybe he'd have some kind of breakdown. She didn't want that. She just wanted him happyh and safe and apparently that was easier said that done. Taking a shuddering breath and shook her head and closed her eyes for a moment. She wasn't crying, she wasn't!
"Come back, Sid. All is forgiven," she muttered bitterly.
She couldn't do this anymore, clearly trying to be good didn't work, she just needed to go out, take a bunch of pills and just forget about everything, find something or rather someone to take her mind of things maybe?