In the face of these thoughts consciously, Fala's words would echo through his mind. That this was his line's curse. Love.
And yet even then, he couldn't see Sarah killing him. Even if she had the strength for it. He couldn't see where it wouldn't hurt Caryn more, him dead at her own cousin's hand over her heart. "Notes do wonders, love." It was murmured into her hair before he dragged her gently into his lap. He may not say the words, may never. But sometimes his motions showed more that he cared, both for her safety and that she was around.