She still couldn't quite believe she'd told him, like she'd said he was better off not knowing but it was too late she'd given in because she couldn't deal with him thinking she was hiding things from him. If he'd just accepted it everything would have been okay, she could pretend everything was still fine back in Bristol, it had been a nice thought only her knowing the truth.
"I didn't want to tell you," she said quietly, her voice wavering again as she tried her hardest not to cry, "I didn't want you to know what I did but you made me tell you and now it's out there." She looked at him for moment when he held his arms open, this was what she'd wanted since she first arrived here, a little bit of comfort to make things a little easier. Running the short distance between them she hugged him tightly burying her head against his chest, "I'm so Sid, I'm so so sorry," she murmured.