Part of her wanted to tell him to go away and never speak to her again, just to get out of her life for good, but she couldn’t bring herself to say it. She knew what he’d done, he’d admitted to her, and she was in this hospital bed clinging to life in part because of it, but she couldn’t sever ties with him again. She had to know some things first. And then there was the sad look in his eyes, of course he didn’t want her to know, but she did. She’d heard him talking to her day after day and threatening the nurses. She knew his pain, as if he was feeling hers.
She should cut him from her life, but she couldn’t. She didn’t know why yet. She just wanted to know why. Why had he done those things.. She never would have thought he would have been capable of something like that. It made her eyes tear up just to think about it. She was certain he was preparing himself for the possibility that she was going to tell him that she never wanted to see him again, but she was unable to say those words.
She forced herself to sit up so she could really look at him. “Why Severus? Tell me why you would do those things…”