"He's not. Everything I put him through is it a wonder he's having a hard time getting back into things. Sam's..."
Dammit. The instinct was still to defend Sam, automatic at this point. People insulting him like that. It bothered her, Castiel had told her time and time again she needed to be herself and not always rush to his defence and she tried, she really did.
"Sorry..."
Shr thought about what Buffy said, and finally came up with an answer that made sense to her.
"I didn't mean to. I mean before Faith, the girl he was with, it was easier to keep him where I needed him. But he wasn't happy and I told him as much. Told him he'd be better off away from it, and he met her and he was happy. I was pleased he was happy. Then it all just got messed up because I saw a chance to make him strong, a chance to get what I truly believed the world needed. I thought Lucifer would make everything better, and now I'm here, torturing myself on the say so of dead demons I probably should have died right along with. I was as much to blame as either of them."
Useless.
Ruby looked over to the oldest of the Slayers and raised an eyebrow, she realised something she hadn't before.
"You feel replaced don't you. Or...stuck, or something. Thats got to be hard to take"