It was such a simplistic way of putting it all. "Yeah, thats right" she confirmed somewhat bitterly and looked down at her hands again as Buffy spoke, saying she'd seen something like this before. Holy water, burning, redemption. Had she?
"World ending attempts and almost destroying your friends tend to mean insane right, kind of insane you don't get forgiven for, well unless you're Fai..."
No she wasn't going to go there. It was better if she didn't go there about one of Buffy's friends. And she wasn't even sure if she meant it, she wasn't sure what she meant she was only sure about how much it hurt. How much it always hurt. She looked around to make sure Azazel and Lilith were gone and closed her eyes for a moment when she found they weren't.
"I had to. I had to do it. It wasn't some lame ass attempt at self harm. I just...they told me. And its not like I don't deserve it, this place even makes sense doesn't it. Holy places..."