Fine, whatever. By some definitions. Good for him, she'd throw him a parade. She wouldn't stop reading Sam's stuff though. She couldn't. She wasn't about to have another gaping hole in her life. There were three things that had been in her heart since coming here, Cas, Sam and her beliefs. Two of them had fallen apart on her and it was only through what she termed as some kind of miricle that she still had the third.
"I've left him alone, we've talked a little bit, or I've talked and he's yelled. Faith and Castiel can see everything we say to each other. How is that stalking?. I just need..."
Need what, validation, because it felt like that sometimes on the rare occasion Sam acknowledged her, but she wasn't stupid. "I know he won't get over it, why would he, and yeah he's stubborn but he has every right to be like that. And he's not an ass". Defending him, again, yeah maybe she did need to stop that sort of thing, maybe it did look pathetic. But walking away was never going to be an option.
"Its off the table, walking away. Can't do it. But I'm trying to have other things in my life. Working here, talking to new people, and there's Cas, because I'm fully aware just how much I should be grateful he's still with me, and I am, don't get me wrong. But I won't walk away unless Sam tells me. I won't walk away until I explain and he hears me. I can't do it. Tell me, would you have blocked that Slayer of yours out when she thought you were the worst kind of scum in the world?"