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CHAMBERS, samara b. (tracelines) wrote in pandorarpg,

Samara thought for a moment that things were moving on, that she could relax and she did. This was a mistake she couldn't make again. This was a mistake she could never make around him again while they were discussing these memories that were now in their minds that didn't belong to them because the next thing she did was such an obvious give-away that she might as well have told him everything right then and there. When he mentioned dead people's memories Samara's eyes went wide and she looked away from him and down at her hands. It took her a moment to recover from it, because she just hadn't expected this line of talk and it was stupid of her not to, but there it was. She was getting soft after five years; this stupid memory that wasn't hers was ruining everything and she needed it out, dammit.

In one of their earlier plans, Samara and Elijah Senior had considered not modifying Eli's memory at all but rather modifying Elijah Senior's memory so that it would work well enough to be placed into Eli's head once Elijah Senior was dead. Which obviously meant that Elijah Senior would have to kill himself at some point in order for the plan to work. But after they considered it long enough (and they did seriously consider it for a while, for it meant Samara didn't actually have to perform any magic on Eli's mind) the technicalities became much too great for the two of them. Elijah Senior would still need to get convicted for Eli's crimes - it was easier just to do it the way they did.

Not to mention Eli might not have access to any dead man's memories, but Samara now did. She still had Elijah senior's original memories of his research project during the time of the war (as well as Eli's memory of his real research project which he had removed because he knew he'd be going to Azkaban for it and was making a failsafe, which Samara stole) stored in her family's vault in Gringotts along with a few other memories Elijah Senior had included for the time when Eli did figure all this out. Both he and Samara had known it would not last forever.

This would be something they could use, except that she couldn't tell him any of this, because why would Elijah Senior give these extra memories to Samara instead of just giving them to his son before he went to Azkaban? And why would Samara not have given them to him five years ago if not? However, she could create approximate similar memories of her own to experiment with if she had enough information to go by. But she would still probably need Eli's help in the end with the experimentation, which begged the question: if she was willing to do anything to save her family, did that include breaking it if it came down to that? Would she just tell Eli about all of it if giving him these memories might save their lives even if the fallout was losing him? She knew that Jason needed his father and if it meant her losing Eli well-she might have to do it for the both of them.

She looked up at Eli again after that moment and said as strongly as she could without looking away from him because it was key that she not give it away yet, "I can try to recreate it. The memory - it's easier for Obliviators to make false memories when we've got a real memory to work off of and obviously we've seen this one with quite a lot of detail, so I can try to recreate it for someone else. We can put it in someone else's head and see what happens. Make them think they've been having these nightmares every night and see if they keep having them or if they develop the spot because of it."