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michael corner is reluctantly growing up (mlcorner) wrote in pandorarpg,
@ 2011-12-08 18:02:00

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!status: complete, ^date: november 06 2003, character: lavender brown, character: michael corner

Characters: Lavender Brown and Michael Corner
Setting: Lavender's flat, 6 November 2003, 7:42pm
Rating: PG
Summary: Michael is going to get Lavender to let someone in if he has to force himself in—which he just might.

Michael was really worried about Lavender after writing back and forth with her in the journals. She didn't sound anything like herself and he really didn't know exactly what was wrong with her but with the nightmares he just wasn't sure how stable she was and if she should be on her own. She'd never admit to anything otherwise but that didn't really matter to him just then; he wanted to know that she was safe and the only way to do that was to go to her flat and see for himself and stay with her if need be.

His original plan was to try and con her into going to the meeting but he wasn't really thinking about that anymore after seeing how she reacted to him in the margins. She seemed so unwound and the way she was talking about dying, he was just so worried for her. He didn't live that far from her now and the walking did him some good to clear his head. He knew she wouldn't react well to his storming her place like this, but he would deal with the consequences as they came. Michael stopped at the cafe to grab some food for them both before continuing toward her flat. He had to hope that she would at least open the door for him so that he could push his way in before she slammed it in his face or he may not even get in—but he had to get in. He had to be there for her. He didn't care how angry she was, it was better than her being alone.

He raised a hand and knocked quietly, hoping that it would make her think it was someone else. Michael was generally a loud and boisterous knocker. If she didn't open the door, he'd have to try and break in. What if she was hurt or in some sort of trouble? He'd have to do it, for her sake.

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mlcorner
2011-12-11 11:06 pm UTC (link)

"Well I won't accept that! Not now, not ever!" No one should die for any reason except for having grown old and lived a full life and Michael didn't want to see it any other way.

He didn't know why she was telling him that because he already knew that. That's what he had been saying all along. That's what he had been saying to her, had been thinking that she was not doing, but now he was beginning to see he might have been getting it wrong. Maybe she wasn't just giving up because of the prediction, maybe she was attempting to do something similar to what Michael was: give up her life for others' lives that she thought were worth more than hers. But that didn't make sense to him because Lavender had more potential than he did, so how could she be thinking like that?

Michael didn't even bother to try and catch the journal, he was too busy trying to listen to what she was saying. He side-stepped it and it hit the ground next to his feet and scattered pages on the floor. He shook his head more and more as she went on, not believing the words she spoke. It was ridiculous, every word of it, yet he knew that she believed it all. "Alright, I said I'd tell you when you were being foolish. Well you are. So you're a mess, who gives a bloody shite? That doesn't mean that your life isn't worth anything. That doesn't make you any less worthy of living than the rest of, Lavender. And what the fuck do you mean, 'what sort of person you are now?' Just what the hell do you think you've become, exactly?"

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lavishly
2011-12-11 11:26 pm UTC (link)

There were times, and tonight was definitely one of them, when Lavender didn't really know what she was saying or what she was saying those things. Words just came spewing out of her mouth in things that somewhat resembled sentences. It wasn't that any of them were untrue, just that it was a lot of different things at once and not always making the most sense.

"Except for the part where it totally does." And this was far too honest and a conversation that was a few years delayed. "I'm not right and no one really knows what I am right now." Sure there was Bill Weasley who she knew had also been attacked by Greyback and lived to tell the tale, but she didn't think it was the same. He had people, a wife who wasn't exactly human herself and the biggest bit for her was that he was a male. He didn't already have monthly cycles and hormones to deal with on top of other monthly cycles.

"Everyone says that this should be the time of your life, where you get to make mistakes and try new things. I hide in the back of a bakery most of my life and you..." Lavender shook her head not sure if she wanted to admit that out loud. He could probably assume it given how she reacted to him some five years ago.

"So I'm scared about what's happening, about not having Harry to save us again, but at the same time, I don't know." She paused swallowing as tears started to well up in eyes. "There's sort of a calmness because what if this is what I'm supposed to do. Like I survived Greyback so I could be here now and fix this, stop it from getting worse because at least that would be something."

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