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Tweak says, "Surrender Dorothy!"

Angelina Johnson (fiercebird) wrote in pandorarpg,
@ 2011-11-03 20:31:00

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!status: complete, ^date: november 01 2003, character: angelina johnson, character: cho chang

In Mourning
Who: Angie & Cho
What: Angie runs into Cho while visiting their respective dead boyfriends. How chipper.
When: Saturday November 1st, 2003 at around 6 pm
Where: Wizarding cemetery in Ottery St Catchpole
Rating: Work safe most likely

Angie was not a crier. In fact the last time she'd cried enough to actually call it that had been during Fred's funeral. Then she'd learned a different way to cope. She drank. Eventually, Angie had gotten past it. Not over it, but past it. She and Fred had been together for years and losing him before they'd gotten to live life together had been a tough blow.

But that didn't mean she didn't think about his often. Sometimes it was good, and sometimes it wasn't. Sometimes she drank again, just enough to forget. And sometimes things happened, like the death of Harry Potter, that made Angie remember just how many people they'd lost senselessly. She didn't want to talk to the living. She got dressed, donning somber grey to match her mood but wore a red coat, with gold buttons, her Gryffindor colors shining through.

Angie didn't bring flowers. She brought Skiving Snackboxes and a few other WWW products instead. She spoke to Fred much as she would have had he still be alive. After about a half hour of talking Angie actually felt a bit better. Not amount of talking to a headstone would change the fact that Harry Potter had been killed, but Angie felt a bit more up to seeing friends, toasting Harry, and honestly trying to drink that away too. She got up to leave, bidding Fred goodbye, and stuck her hands in her pockets as she turned to go. She wasn't alone though. Squinting she tried to make out who it was she saw just some distance away.

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fiercebird
2011-11-07 04:27 pm UTC (link)

Angie nodded in response. "It is. I don't talk to him like I used too. For a good year or two after he died, I would come here and be a useless wreck for the rest of the day. I couldn't even really say the word died without wanting to-" Angie shrugged her shoulders, not at all wanting to get into her drinking habits with Cho. "It's gotten better. He's still a part of me but not in any physical sense. I know he's not truly gone. He couldn't leave George behind like that," she added with a ghost of a smile.

"Anywhere I come here now and just talk to him like when we were mates. Let him know what's been going on with me and mine." She sighed. "I hope I can get to that point with Harry too, but right now I can't even believe he's gone."

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un_cho_sen
2011-11-07 08:56 pm UTC (link)

Cho listened as Angie spoke about Fred. She wished she had been able to let go so easily, but something kept her holding on. Cho wasn't sure why she felt as if she couldn't move on as there was nothing physically holding her back. Perhaps it had been the fact that Cedric had been the first of many many deaths. Fear had a way of making one stray from situations they might otherwise have grasped.

"I come to talk to Cedric," she stated as if talking to a dead person on a regular basis was the most natural thing in the world. Cho did a good job of not making it seem she was still hung up on the former Hufflepuff and Hogwarts' Champion. "Simply being near him makes things feel better when the world around me is in chaos." She came whenever her memories became too much to bear or when a case at work became too overwhelming. Today's visit was a mixture of both.

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fiercebird
2011-11-08 07:26 pm UTC (link)

Angie nodded. She though so. She remembered Cedric, rather fondly actually, and it had been a shock when he'd died, partly because he was only seventeen and partly because it heralded the beginning of some very dark times. She had no idea just how much his death was still affecting Cho - they'd never been so close that she'd noticed a difference in her.

"I think I understand what you mean," she replied. "It's pretty quiet her and you can be alone without really being alone." She wasn't sure if that made sense to Cho but it did to her. It could be comforting.

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un_cho_sen
2011-11-08 09:10 pm UTC (link)

"It is amazing how just being near can make you feel so much closer," Cho agreed. If one believed in spirituality then talking to a lost loved one should be able to occur at any time and any place. There was just something about being where the physical remains laid that brought a different type of closeness.

"Now if you'll excuse me," she nodded in the direction of the graves feeling quite certain that Johnson would understand her lack of a formal farewell. It was an odd sensation really being so close but so far from the one you loved. Cho was usually eager to find Cedric and begin her conversation. It was always the leaving that was hard. She didn’t know if the same was true for the other witch, but Cho did not want to hold her up much longer.

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fiercebird
2011-11-09 07:35 pm UTC (link)

"Quite right," Angie nodded in response. "Please, don't let me keep you," she replied. She didn't much mind the brief dismissal; were their positions reversed she would have wanted to end the conversation soon as well. Angie had already finished hers and it gave her some small sense of closure or contentment. Whatever it was, she felt better now than she had before she'd come.

With a last nod at Cho, Angie left, intending to go on about her day in somewhat better spirits.

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