Who: Joy & Laura What: A phone call, in which Joy tries something drastic (aka girl talk) When: Saturday night
-ring ring-
"Hello?"
"Laura? Hey. This is Joy..."
"Oh. Hey. Hi Joy! What's up?" "Oh...nothing..." -she laughs- "Just me. Couldn't sleep. Figured maybe I could use someone to talk to besides my mom, since I can't exactly come out and say, 'Hey, Spock asked me and Yoda if we'd want to do the mind meld.'"
"Talking is good. Mindmeld?" -thinks for a second- "Oh! So, uh, things are going well with Joe, I take it?" "I guess so. I mean, I think so. Once we cleared things up about what was or was not going on between me and Liam Wolfe, that is. I mean, I have a key to Joe's apartment, and I'm planning to study here in London over the summer so we can spend more quality time together. But everything's so crazy..." -a pause- "Laura, why do Jedi have to be so...feelings-oriented?"
"A key is a pretty big deal, and quality time. Especially quality time." -soft laugh- "Um, I don't know. I mean, the Force isn't really logical, you know? Even if they try to explain it, it's just something you feel." -another laugh- "Kinda like women's intuition." "I guess I'm just having trouble balancing intuition and emotion. Kirk showed up and I kinda freaked out on her."
"Like Spock's Kirk? Is a woman? Wow. That... sucks." "Yeah, like Spock's Kirk is a woman. Closer to his age. Whom he actually met in High School or something. Thanks, Laura, I feel so much better." -ah, sarcasm, the last refuge of the imaginatively bankrupt-
"Sorry. Just thinking... that's sort of awkward. But age doesn't mean anything? And they have the whole brothers in arms thing, right? Nothing kills off potential romance faster then that. Trust me." "Ugh. I know. I feel like I just keep making it worse. I guess it's like you and Nate, huh? I just...don't want to screw this up."
"Yeah. I mean, I actually thought about... but it was way too weird. Anyway... yeah. You should probably give him the benefit of the doubt? It's a chance to show that you really trust him. Assuming that you do. You seem like you do." "I do. Yeah. It's just weird, though, because Yoda doesn't have that kind of attachment to anyone. Cares about all of you, he does, but it's different. Or maybe it's not so different. I guess I just wasn't prepared to know how to deal with these kind of feelings."
"You mean jealousy?" "Jealousy. Possessiveness. Insecurity. Most unbecoming to a Jedi.'"
"Okay, the second two aren't so good, but jealousy isn't all bad? I think it's kind of flattering when guys get jealous. Just a little. He may think it's sweet that you care that much? As long as you don't scare off his friend. Being a Jedi isn't about not feeling the negative stuff anyway. It's about acknowledging it, but not letting it master you." -brief pause- "That last part is all Luke, by the way. He's actually kind of smart sometimes. Occasionally." "I guess I should learn to talk thing out instead of being all...reactionary." -she sighs, but it turns into a laugh- "Sometimes I wish I paid more attention to our spectral guides instead of insisting on learning it all the hard way."
-laughs too- "Now where would the fun in that be? If you were wise all the time, you wouldn't get to argue with your man, and then you wouldn't get to make up..." "And, you know what? For a Vulcan, he sure is fond of making up!"
"Aha! So there is a good side!" "Yeah..." -sheepish, and probably blushing, if you know Joy- "I'm actually in London right now. Joe's already sleeping, but I'm still on Minnesota time. That and I just can't seem to get my wheels to stop spinning. I mean. Mind-meld. That's kind of a big deal. I should be meditating or something but. Even Yoda doesn't know what to do with me right now."
"Maybe drink some tea? That's a very London thing to do, right? I don't know. I don't even know much about Trek, other than what I've absorbed from you and Nate. Mind-meld sounds like a big thing though. It sounds pretty awesome." "Not just a London thing. My mom always used to fix me chamomile tea when I was little. I made sure there would be a box of it in the cupboard for me when I come over. As far as the mind meld, it can be very intimate, and pretty intense--and sometimes dangerous for humans because of the way Vulcans are trained to suppress their emotions. He's still really worried about hurting me, I can feel it." -sigh- "My empathy is already getting pretty strong when it comes to Joe."
"I think that's always a danger with strong willed people. Maybe it's another part of why Jedi don't usually pair off. Sometimes you can feel too much..." -trails off- "I'm kind of jealous of you now though. If anyone can handle it, it's Spock and Yoda. And you and Joe."
"Yeah, I think I know what you mean. I mean, I felt it when Ari and Kent died--I could feel Joe grieving for them and I broke down in the middle of class. But I'm learning. Always learning. Yoda says that is as it should be."
"Listen to the green dude. He would know. You've got a great guide through all of this. If it weren't for him and Kenobi, Luke wouldn't have any wisdom at all." "Thanks, Laura. I'll try--I mean." -ahem- "I'll do my best. I hope some day I'll be able to pass on some more of that wisdom." -there's a muffled yawn- "I guess I should finish my tea and try to get some sleep before the sun comes up over here. We should talk more often."
"We should. I'll talk to you later, Joy." "Thanks again."