"I wanna ask her," there was something hard and heavy in Ryan's chest, and it was difficult to string the words together, but if he didn't manage now he'd never manage with Gemma, "if maybe, if I could - on the side - see you - be with you - if you'd like." He was so terrified of Doyle's response, but he looked up at him, hoping for the best even if he didn't believe it would come.