*fights to lift his head to look at you and it does not require any strength to look and look, but you are not looking at him anymore (do you not want to? (can you not?)*
*looks down at the book again* *mumbles* I need to start again. I don't remember... *blinks rather heavily and that simple act seems to send shudders under his skin (because you probably know that there is something inherently wrong with him)*