*more to himself than to you* No, I'm not kidding. I was pretty awful to him. *looks up again briefly, but plenty long enough to process your expression, ho boy* And I was so, so wrong about him. I mean at first I thought it was just sex— *...oh. wow. really not the best thing to say?*
*finds he can't quite look at you again, because all of this is more or less confirming his fears and bringing back all the wishes he were normal, except for the part where...*
*very quietly but perfectly intelligibly* I mean I've never been in love before. Never. And I know it's not your thing but... *shrugs and settles for drinking more coffee (though he kind of regrets not asking for a shot of courage)* It's nice. For me. *with something that is half-cough, half-laugh* Feel free to ignore all of that if it's easier.