*looks down at you, shaking his head, and the tears were hot but they freeze because you are so close and his heart rate is slowing down*
*brokenly* I just ... I just want it to stop ... please. Please? I just ... I just wanted him so badly but I'm not allowed ... I only ever wanted him ... I think I fucked up ... I don't under-understand what ... *looks at you, his whisper even more plaintive* I don't know what to do.