Interesting. So magic is usable where you are from, but most don't have the ability to make their own? In my world, the gene is either active or not with a few rare exceptions. Ever consider getting tested to see if you have the ability to channel magic from an outside source? Preya has enough wild magic - especially in Everdale where there are some seriously sloppy magic users - that if you know how you can almost always latch onto something.
Happens I studied a bit of elemental magic when I was researching the Arithmantic roots of wandless magic. If you do have the ability, I can probably teach you a few tricks. No demons invited. May even be your suspicion of magic is based on a suppressed aptitude. Seen stranger things than that before. Out of curiosity, can you feel anything from the spellwork I set on that blade Selene and I made for you?