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It is the very best promise I can make! (These messaging systems are absolutely impossible when it comes to tone, aren't they?)
I would have said that it isn't unusual for the respect the young have for the old to include a drop of fear - but certainly not murderous desires and portents of doom. Not outside of melodrama! I can see that it would make things difficult for you. Even so, your life is yours, and if the choice is between ending it or dealing with their fears and envies - I know what I would prefer.
I do not think there are many women who could treat a child harshly for a mistake like that. If you do not mind the question, though, how do you look upon them all now, with the hindsight of very many years? Do you still think of him as a god?