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I still hold that you should speak to someone but I believe we are now going in circles. Were I a dog, I would simply be chasing my tail.
Ugh, I dread to think how much longer I will live... At some point, I will have to decide to stop but I am afraid of true death.
It doesn't hurt that Pharaoh was very handsome! Mind you, His son was even better looking. I, of course, never said such a thing but it was easy to love Pharaoh. I learned much from Him and I know He found value in me, even if it was just as a possession. It was under Him that the stranger came and made me what I am. The life thief was turned out to the sun and he burned. Pharaoh called it "Ra's justice" though I later learned that was just a trait of vampires.