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Why would they be cut-off if they are doing no harm?
I was not accusing you of cowardice, Miss Black. It's very clear you are full of the exact opposite. But I can understand the heartache you were experiencing. I have seen a great many terrible things, a great number of deaths, wars, plagues. It is always the same. Time makes you... Harder towards such things. A dead body just becomes another empty shell. I never wish that for you. Use the pain to spur you into further good works. Never let it make you vengeful but be angry. Anger is good. Use the anger to be productive. And anyone who says a woman is weak, know better.
And though it might seem... distasteful, I would suggest finding a nice female therapist. They can help you learn techniques to better cope with the overwhelming feeling. In the modern age, seeking someone professional to speak to is much less frowned upon. No one's going to lock you up for hysteria. I'll even escort you if you decide upon it and but are fearful.
I suppose it would be my heritage as a desert-dweller. So many snakes in the sand. But the animal came to me; I did not choose.