His parents had tried to get him to talk about it, to talk about what he was feeling but he didn't want to talk about it. Not with them anyway. But with Caelee that was different, he knew that she wouldn't try to pull the words out him that she'd let him come out with all of it in his own time. And she knew how bad it was hurting him without him needing to say it.
"I'd stayed at the apartment to finish unpacking while she went to pick up things she needed. She called to find out what I wanted her to pick up for dinner and we were just talking. Arguing back and forth about what to get," he said. "I heard the truck hit her car. I didn't know what it was and then the call was dropped and I started to panic and I just kept calling her back, trying to convince myself that she was okay, that it was just some minor accident and she'd...be there soon and laugh at me for getting worked up over nothing like she always did. And then her parents called to tell me what had happened and I just," he'd just shut down. He didn't even remember his parents bringing him back to the house. Or any of what had happened until the next day. "I don't remember anything else until mom told me she'd called Gage and Cole. I just keep hearing it when I'm awake. The sound of the crash, or her laugh and I just...I miss her Caelee"