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Tweak says, "hahaha...bless your soul"

marty_deeks (marty_deeks) wrote in omega_reality,
@ 2011-07-30 17:05:00

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*complete, 2011 07, character: marty deeks, character: savannah monroe

RP: Savannah and Marty
Who: Marty Deeks and Savannah Monroe
Where: The House
When: July 30, 2011
Summary: Marty only has so much self control

He'd heard about the water fight earlier in the week though he hadn't been at the house to see it himself, and he had seen Savannah running out to play with Riggins again the next day when it was pouring, leaving the rest of them in the house wondering what the hell they were doing out there. And then that afternoon Savannah told him she was going to go to the pool with Tim.

And Marty felt like he'd been doing a pretty decent job of not actually killing the boy, because there were a few minutes when he'd considered it, either that or having him trip over his own two feet. He could totally make it look like an accident. But he hadn't done any of that, but Marty felt that self control he worked hard on maintaining slipping away from him the more time Savannah spent with Tim.

"You're spending more time with him?" Marty asked, rather than agree to go to the pool or not.

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savannah_monroe
2011-07-30 10:20 pm UTC (link)

Savannah put her bathing suit and a sundress on. She pulled her hair into a ponytail and then grabbed what she needed and put it in her bag, before asking Marty if he wanted to join her and Tim. The answer confused her, though, mostly because it wasn't an answer, but a question.

"I'm not. Not really. I've spent a few hours the past few days. It's nice to spend time with someone... normal, I guess, and he was basing for me," she said, not sure why this was even coming up. "I've asked people to come outside. I asked you, but you didn't want to, and now I'm asking if you'd like to join us to the pool."

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marty_deeks
2011-07-30 10:44 pm UTC (link)

Marty hated that, hated that he wasn't ever going to be normal to Savannah. He knew he wasn't normal, he'd known it his entire life. But he'd been trying for Savannah, if not to be normal then to at least be able to give her the things that she needed, and yet this alluded him somehow. "Yes, I heard about that." Marty nodded, he wasn't sure what the point had been the day before, to run out into the rain the way Savannah had done. But then Tim had been right there too and Marty hadn't stuck around to watch them.

"I just - I don't understand why you're suddenly spending so much time with him." It wasn't like Savannah didn't see him normally, there weren't that many of them after all. "The three of us at the pool?" Marty asked shaking his head. "It doesn't really work like that, it's one thing if everyone went, but no one else is going but the two of you, you get what that looks like don't you?"

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savannah_monroe
2011-07-30 11:01 pm UTC (link)

"There was nothing to hear. We were right outside in the yard," she said, laughing. "I don't know why no one comes out. It's like y'all can't leave the house unless it's work. I get that it's hot, but a little water, some rain, and it's all better."

Savannah shrugged. "Maybe because we have nothing to do and we're supposed to be agents, but we really aren't. We're twenty one and we'd like to do normal things, and since we can't go anywhere, we play in the yard." She looked at him with a frown. "Like we're going to the pool on a hot Saturday? It's not like it's a private pool and any of them can come. I'm not seeing the problem."

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marty_deeks
2011-07-30 11:08 pm UTC (link)

"Maybe if you explained it, instead of just saying it's normal people might be interested." Marty said slowly, because she didn't really seem to understand what the problem was, what he was seeing there - what everyone else must be seeing there when she spent all of that time with Tim. He really couldn't be the only person who saw it.

"You know us, Savannah - is anyone in this house normal? Normal the way you're normal?" Because the distinction was an important one to make, the normal that worked for most of them wasn't the same thing to Savannah. "Playing in the yard, running out before it rains in your swimsuit, letting some guy put his hands all over you - that stuff isn't normal for us. It isn't normal for me."

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savannah_monroe
2011-07-30 11:27 pm UTC (link)

"I didn't say come outside, because it's normal. I said come outside. There's a difference, Marty." She didn't like the tone of this conversation even if she still didn't understand what was going on. "I set up: chairs, beers, rifles. Anyone wanted to come and shoot, they could have come outside, and yesterday there was nothing to explain. It was hot and it was about to rain. We went outside to play with the rain. That's it. There's nothing to explain."

She nodded. "I get it, and I've played by everyone's rules, done everything required, but then I like to do normal things, like running around. I understand that it's not what you do, but it's what the world does, what I do, and if I can get used to firing machine guns, you can get used to playing in the rain."

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marty_deeks
2011-08-03 11:30 pm UTC (link)

"It's not - it's not about playing in the rain, Savannah. Which does need a little explanation for some of us." Marty didn't know how to say what he was trying to say, but that much always seemed to be the case, particularly when he let his emotions start to run away with him and stopped thinking about how what he said would sound to the person hearing it. He knew how it got him into trouble over and over again and yet Marty never seemed to be able to curb himself of the habit.

He could get used to playing in the rain - if that was what normal was for Savannah he could make an attempt at it. But it wasn't about the rain, or going out into the yard to shoot, or even going to the pool today. He pushed a hand into his hair and sighed, "I don't understand the appeal of running out into the rain - I spend more time running away from it. I don't really know what it is the rest of the world does - I mean I can do it for a cover, and I can pretend but I don't understand it." It wasn't the kind of life he'd had, and sure he could follow the actions, make a process out of it - there wasn't any understanding there. "But it's not about that, I can get used to playing in the rain if that's what you want - I just...

"You're spending all of this time doing normal things with him, and I want you to have a good time." And not spend her time wondering if Marty knew how to be normal doing things that seemed to come completely naturally to her and Tim.

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savannah_monroe
2011-08-03 11:42 pm UTC (link)

She just listened, not that he was saying much, but usually she could read between the lines, except this time there weren't a lot of lines and the ones that were there were getting her angry, which was never a good sign. "So it's not about playing in the rain, although I should explain why one would want to play in the rain, when it finally cools off after a month of insanely hot weather? Right, since that's not obvious at all, I can see why you need an explanation."

Savannah still didn't get it. "I'm not asking you to do anything. I'm not telling you to pretend. It was hot, it started raining, we got wet so it would cool off. You could join or not. You didn't, that's fine, and I'm not forcing you to do anything, so you don't have to get used to anything."

She put her hands on her hips and stared at him. "So I'm doing normal things, and it's not about that, and you want me to have a good time, and everything is fine, except you're sounding like there is a problem with me wanting to be normal, and I don't appreciate it. I don't understand your paranoia, your job, our job, the guns, the killing, the training. I don't get any of it, but I still do it and I don't complain when you need to check for security or whatever else you do. You don't get to complain when I'm normal."

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marty_deeks
2011-08-04 01:52 am UTC (link)

"I'm not complaining about you being normal, you should get to do normal things." It was part of the reason Marty hadn't been so happy to see Savannah and Tim hitting it off in the first place, because it made the differences between himself and her that much more pronounced. And he knew it was stupid, knew that thinking like that didn't do himself any benefits or Savannah but Marty couldn't seem to make it happen.

"It's about him!" Marty said frustration winning out over his normal inability to talk about whatever it was that was on his mind, pulling the issue to the forefront. "You're out there doing those things with him. And I don't know what to say, because you should get to have friends who can do normal things and you should be able to do all of that, but I want to be the one doing those things with you - not him."

He sighed shaking his head, "Look just - you should go and I'll work on trying to not be so much of an idiot while you're gone."

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savannah_monroe
2011-08-04 02:20 am UTC (link)

Oh thank goodness that he was upset enough to blurt out things, because that was the only way that Savannah actually understood what was going on. She didn't think that she could go another round of doing normal things, although after his start, it'd sounded like that was where they were headed, before the sudden shift.

"Arguing with you would give anyone whiplash," she said as she relaxed a little, replaying the conversation in her head now that she knew what the problem was. "You're jealous." She shook her head, smiling. "You could have just said that." Savannah moved closer and put her arms around him, before looking up at him. "It's kind of… romantic, but you really have no reason to be. Tim is like one of my cousins. He gets things, we grew up with the same things, in similar towns, but I'm not interested in him, because that's-" She made a face. "That's just wrong."

She reached for him and pulled his head down so she could kiss him. "I'm in love with you, you crazy man, and I want to do everything with you, but I'm not going to force you to do things that feel stupid to you. I'm also not going to spend my life waiting for you or G to get around to having a minute for things that mean something to me. How many times have we talked about stunting? Since December. That's eight months, Marty, and it's never happened. There's always something, a problem, a security threat, work, something. I know that it's very unimportant for you, but I told Tim to do it, and he just raised me up and we were stunting right in the backyard. There was no waiting, no planning, no-. I need these things, Marty, doing things just because, thinking something and doing it without a battle plan. I end up doing them with Tim, because he gets it, but it's never a private party. You can always join, heck you can be there before he is, but I'm not cutting him out. He needs normal even more than I do. At least I have you, and G, and everyone in this house. He has no one."

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marty_deeks
2011-08-05 03:34 pm UTC (link)

Marty sighed, he still wasn't used to jealousy, it wasn't like the sort of jealousy he'd experienced before - not like jealousy over a possession, or jealousy over the sort of lives he'd seen people lead. This was jealousy because of something he wasn't, something he'd never be and that he wanted to be. He wanted to just understand the things that Savannah did. He wrapped his arms around her though when she moved closer. "I'd have to know what to call it to have told you that."

The face she pulled more than the words she said put Marty at ease though, enough to feel like the idiot he was about all of this.

"I don't want those things to feel stupid to me." He told her, and maybe they did, or if not stupid then he just didn't see the point in them. He was stuck wondering at the reasoning instead of just seeing the enjoyment in it the way Savannah and Tim seemed to so easily. He sighed again, brushing his fingers through her hair away from her face. "I don't want you to stop spending time with him, or cutting him out." Well some part of him might want that, but as a whole Marty didn't want Savannah giving up her friends or people who seemed to understand her as well as Tim did. "Look, let me just ... let me change and I'll come with you down to the pool today."

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savannah_monroe
2011-08-05 07:37 pm UTC (link)

Savannah laughed. "Yes, why use 'normal' words? I can see how those can confuse you." She kissed his cheek softly. "I love you, and we'll find the words together. Some normal, some insane, and we'll find our own way. We have from the start, because nowhere else a cheerleader and a cop would be getting married."

She shrugged. "It's all right. You can't push yourself to enjoy those things. You do or don't, and there's nothing wrong if you don't, but we do them together and then you can see if you do, because I can't explain running in the rain. There's really nothing to explain, Marty." She turned her head and kissed his wrist. "Go. I'll wait for you and we'll go to the pool together."

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