Re: April and G
Listening to her, G couldn't help thinking he knew exactly where this was coming from and it was potentially his fault in part for always using her as an example to Abby. There hadn't been anyone else Abby had seemed to care about enough who was still learning defense. Who knew how much of that Abby had told April?
"April, listen to me." He held his gaze steady, meeting her eyes as he spoke quietly, but firmly. "You are not a burden and you can't let yourself start thinking like that. Being a doctor can make a difference. It will make a big difference when we're on the run and you're the reason some of us will still be alive to go home. There are other ways to help than forcing the issue of getting over this block. If you try to force it, you stand the risk of setting yourself back even further. Continuing to work at a steady pace is the best way to get over it with the fewest future complications. Firing a pistol is one way to protect yourself and the team. But, it's not the only way. Instead of trying to push yourself on this, maybe make a concerted effort to think more about security in general? Instead of thinking about how you have to fire the pistol, consider the small things Sam teaches about personal security -- always being aware of your surroundings, not keeping to a routine. Practice things like that. It's just as important, if not moreso, than pushing too hard to handle a pistol. And, the more the security becomes second nature to you, the more you stand a chance of reaching for that pistol when you need it and not hesitating."
G thought for a moment, then decided to go ahead and make the next suggestion. "If you want to focus on getting past your phobia, however, perhaps, instead of adding more time with me at the range, you should talk to Morgan. He's got more training in psychology than I do and he might be able to suggest something to augment your work on the range with me."