Re: TJ and Tommy
"Help? That's a laugh. I don't even know what I need, so I'm not sure how you can help.' he gave TJ a small smile "We don't even snort the same stuff, although at this point, I'll take pretty much anything." He shook his head. 'You know what's ridiculous. I was fine. I haven't thought about it for days, and tonight, it was fine. We were here, celebrating. It was good, and then he opened his mouth." Right, he was not going to start this again. Instead he focused on TJ.
Tommy shook his head. "It's not that, not that you're not a good guy. You were a good guy before Travis. You're... selective, there's nothing wrong with that. No, it's more the way you talk about the things you do together, like it's normal, natural, and totally weird for me. Never really had parents that did that and my relationships were filled with lies. The closest I've been to a normal couple is with Oliver's parents."
He waved the frown away. "I got confused for a moment, that's all." He wasn't really celebrating John's birthday or Nick so he wasn't paying attention to either one of them. "I'd be a pain in the ass, and we both know it. You should get some time with Travis, without me around," he said, chuckling. He really wished that TJ was right about the rest, but he shook his head again. "It's not the same. You know what you want. Maybe you weren't sure with him, but you know what you like. I... I'm confused about everything. I don't know if it's all in my head, if it's just that I can't talk about it with him, if the moment that he were open, I'd change my mind. It's being in a fake relationship with a man who thinks we're practically married, better than most married couples, because what we have it's real and honest, we're just past the honeymoon stage. And I'm actually quoting him, because I couldn't make this shit up if I wanted." He ran his fingers through his hair. "It's just a mess."