TJ Hammond (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} hammond_tj) wrote in ![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} omega_reality, |
"We both have fathers we let fuck us up," TJ murmured. "I think you give more of a damn than you want to admit, just like I do." Sighing, he reached out to grip Tommy's shoulder briefly. "No matter that he's here or not, or that mine is still hovering over my shoulder, likely passing judgement on each choice, we still have that chance."
He laughed softly. "I might be a little smarter than I look, but not geek-level. Following Dr. Isles' conversation at dinner is...an exercise sometimes." Sitting back again, he sighed more heavily. "'The troubled former first son'," he said, actually doing the air quotes. "Honestly? I don't really care what the public thinks. It's not like they saw much I didn't want them to unless it involved someone else leaking information."
TJ snorted. "Of course it was never about me. Neither were the imaginary chances. Or the dashed hopes, the letters, the media reports. Trust me, that's not news to me. And I never learned that particular lesson about dating and sex because I could supply the best party money can buy. Besides, what women needs to date me when she can tell her friends she had sex, alone or in a threesome, with the gay first son? Also, not about me. It's not like there was a line of gay men clamoring to date me, either. They'd have to come out themselves to do that. It was never going to happen at home."
He shook his head. "It's not absurd. Look, I'm hardly the foremost expert on relationships. Before Travis there was one man, it was very secret, and it ended very badly. But, I do know a little something about straight men who find themselves attracted to other men: It takes a metaphoric two-by-four to the head to make them see it for what it is. Your problem is that both of you are straight, or have been, so there's no one to pick up that two-by-four. And, no offense to your best friend and potential love, but Queen strikes me as about as emotionally forthcoming as the two-by-four. He could have similar feelings and you'll never know if you don't say something because I'm not sure he'd recognize them for what they were. Not if he's been that isolated from people for that long.
"The logistics of sex aren't really all that complicated. It's the exact same concept as sex with women: do what feels good and what gets you both off. Neither one of you has to take it up the ass if you don't want to. There are very, very gay men who refuse to. Or suck the other off. I don't give blowjobs and I'm a 'gay icon'. As much as I can't believe the words I'm about to say are coming out of my mouth, if you both have feelings for each other, the sex will work itself out because it's secondary to the rest."