"No, killing is easy. Dealing with the deaths afterward is hard, but first you kill and then you deal with what you've done," he said, not changing his tone in either way. She'd get no pity or anger from him, only good people deserved emotions.. He didn't mention that some of them pushed it so far down that they never dealt with it. It was just part of life. "You can deal with it when everyone is safe. You deal with the demons knowing that you have done what you should have for the good of your team."
Sam didn't know how she survived with her narrow vision of the world. He might have been a little more understanding if lives weren't at stakes. "Am I supposed to wait until something happens? My role is to prepare the team for every contingency and make sure people survive. My job is to get you ready. I've not done any of those things. I've trained you. That's not beating you up or telling you that you're worthless. I'm telling you right now that I don't trust you because I can guarantee you that one day you will get someone killed because you're selfish. And this is the difference between us, you think I should shoot you, but I am an honorable man and as long as the director says that you are part of this team, then I will risk my life to save you regardless of my personal feelings. The moment the Director says that you aren’t-" Or G for that matter. "Then you're not my concern."
He snorted. "You're just a coward on top of everything else. You don't look for the easy way out. You don't try to die. You try to do the right thing. Deciding that you want to die is just like suicide. Suicide by cop, but still suicide. More proof that you care about no one but you. You're right, you deserve to die. I just hope that the day it happens, good people don't die as well."