It didn't seem to matter to any of them that Abby was not able to kill; even if they were trying to kill her. It wasn't about not wanting to live, but rather knowing that she'd never be able to live with herself afterward. Frowning at her computer screen, she said, "I'll never be able to be like you or Callen or Gibbs or McGee or anyone else who actually is an agent. I've had my life threatened enough to know that about myself."
That was the problem with this group. They've all been told to act like a team and work as a team, but every time something happens they are told to keep quiet about it. How could they possibly be a team if no one trusts anyone else? "Pretending is just another form of lying and you don't lie to your partner and you don't lie to your team. If we're a team, then the team should should know. Otherwise, we're just a bunch a liars who don't trust each other."