Re: At Home
The promise only made him feel slightly better. Maybe, if they went into this with their eyes open, they could avoid a complete disaster. Maybe. Possibly. Even in his optimism, he doubted it. They had gone into this with their eyes open and yet, here they were in bed, talking about falling in love and a future. "I'll hold you to it." The words were shared in a whisper, not because he thought Doug would hear, but because he wasn't used to talking about these things. "If I could control this, we wouldn't be having this discussion, tonight of all nights. I'm falling in love with you, babe, and it's not the you part that's giving me trouble, but the falling in love. I know who you are, I can see it in your eyes when you don't think too hard. I think that baby blue of your eyes might have just become my favorite color, because it says more than you can tell, and not just nice pretty things. The anger, the fear, the arrogance, I like the whole package, not just the good parts."
His hand slid up TJ's spine until it cradled TJ's head. He chuckled, despite the seriousness of the discussion. "I love how you can always manage to imply that I'm not good enough without even thinking. Another man might take offense." He kissed TJ, smiling. "They really don't need to know about your sex life, but that's just creepy." He stopped for a moment. "You know, we always start talking about your parents, but it's always your mother in the end. You always go back to her. I still haven't figured out if your father approves or he doesn't matter as much to you."
Travis took a deep breath and then nodded. "All right, so I'm falling for you, you're falling for me, and we have a terrible history with relationships, drugs, foster family. What could go wrong?" He should be running away, and yet, he couldn't. It wasn't who he was, and as long as he didn't think about the future, he could deal with things and the weight in his chest lightened slightly. "Let's see where this goes."