Re: Brian/John (side of Robert)
It was utterly impossible to keep his distance any longer and John gave up trying. He wrapped both arms around Brian and held on tight. Seeing Brian like this was breaking his heart and he didn't know else to help him heal other than to stay with him keep reminding him he wasn't alone. There were so many things he wished he could promise Brian. But, he wouldn't make promises he couldn't keep and he definitely wouldn't make those promises now, when it was the last thing Brian would want to hear.
Which left him at a loss for words he filled by hugging Brian close and not letting go. He should have sent that email, orders be damned. It didn't matter that he didn't know. He still felt responsible because he'd been used to cause Brian pain.
Pulling back only enough that he could see Brian clearly, he brushed his fingers over Brian's cheek. "I wish there was something I could say that would make this easier for you. I love you so much. It's nothing compared to what you've been going through. But, I did miss you. You are more important than saving the world, Brian, any world."