For a moment it was TJ's turn to be confused. Tilting his head, he frowned until he realized what he'd said and what Travis had taken it to mean. When he did, he shook his head. "No, that's not what I'm saying. It was just teasing, not asking or suggesting. Although, we might want to decide on shower or bed before my brother comes out to tell us to find another place for this conversation."
Rather than keep shaking his head, TJ cupped the back of Travis' head and pulled him in for a gentle kiss. He couldn't understand the sheer force with which Travis believed in the positive outcomes of things, or the potential in TJ himself. It seemed impossible that he would ever be able to live up to the image Travis held in his head. And, yet, TJ kept trying. "I'm not talking about fucking up, I mean that my morals are a hell of a lot more flexible than yours. I'm talking about the sort of things that I won't regret. Things you would never consider doing in a million years, but that I wouldn't think twice about."
Huffing irritably, this time TJ did shake his head again. "Travis, in two months you've shown more faith in me than my parents have in possibly the last two decades. I'll be thirty-two years old in a little over a month. The things that make me different are hardly new. I feel like I've done nothing but fight with them my whole life. I come from a family of politicians, lawyers, and I actually hate arguing or debating. I don't need to ask them what they think. Not that it's mattered while we've all done nothing but focus on Mom's campaign. I've hardly even seen my club so we can all be available for whatever the campaign needs. But, they have no problems telling me, even if I don't want to know. You heard the discussions when we left. Doug should stay because he can do so much to help. But, the only reason I should stay was because I couldn't survive without them. They could give Doug a purpose and all they could think of for me was to let me party. That's all they ever saw The Dome as, an excuse for me to party, not a real business venture."
Of course, the last was the million dollar question. "I'm not still in love with him, if that's what you're asking. The night of the opening made it clear it was really over, that what I'd thought we had was as much a lie as everything else."