"Stop doing that to yourself. There's nothing you can do about what's happening there," Brian answered. "We don't know if we will ever go back, but if we do, we will worry about that when we get there. Driving yourself crazy isn't going to help you here and here is where your life is."
Brian chuckled. "No, I don't believe in wasting time." When Nate continued, Brian listened patiently, or not so patiently. "I might not be coy, but I know the type of life you live. I've seen it more than once even if they didn't have the money your family has, but what they go through is the same. Here you have none of those expectations. See how it is."
It was kind of encouraging how much Nate was invested in the pot smuggling business. It gave Brian hope for a much brighter future. "There's a Doc, but she seems too by the book. There is this trucker though has been very happy to look at me between deliveries. I'm thinking a blow job or two should convince him to help us."