Savannah Monroe (savannah_monroe) wrote in omega_reality, @ 2011-12-29 13:08:00 |
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Entry tags: | *complete, 2011 12, character: marty deeks, character: savannah monroe |
RP: Marty and Savannah
Who: Marty and Savannah
Where: their house
When: December 29, 2011
Summary: Savannah is still mulling things over
The weather was extremely nice, nothing like the below freezing temperatures of the year before, and it helped with her walks, but it didn't help feeling better. In fact, very little helped with feeling better. In a way, she was wishing for cold. She would do anything to recapture the last year again.
Savannah spent hours sitting in the middle of a field tossing a ball to Nova, thinking back about the past year. As discussion and discussion came back to mind, she wasn't sure she wanted to go back to a year ago. Sure, there were things she missed, but overall, she didn't want to go back to that. Despite everything that she'd done this month, going back to the way things were wasn't a pleasant experience. Both she and Marty had gone through dark times at the beginning, when everything seemed so bleak, but things had gotten better and now she was bringing them back full circle to that time.
She still didn't know what to do with the new found revelation, but she knew that things couldn't continue this way. She went home and made dinner as usual, still mulling things over. Dinner was a silent affair, nothing unusual there, but after dinner, instead of disappearing in the room, she sat on the couch next to Marty, legs folded under her as she leaned against her husband. Nova jumped on the couch as well, head on Savannah's lap. "I was thinking about last Christmas. You'd told me about moving in together and then a few days later, you told me that you'd changed your mind. No matter how much it hurt, I never gave up on you or us, because I knew you were the one, no matter how insane it sounded I knew and you kept telling me that I deserved better, which made no sense to me, because it was my choice and I wanted you, and now... I'm doing the same thing to you, and you should have that choice, but I- I guess I don't like myself very much, not because of what I've done, which is horrible enough, but because I'm not really feeling guilty, I guess. I'm sorry that they are dead, I'm sorry that I'm going against God and what I believe in, I'm sorry that I'm not going to go to Heaven, but I'm not feeling guilty for what I've done, for protecting you and what kind of person doesn't feel guilty."