How did he begin? How did he even start to tell her all of his motivations behind his mistakes? Actually it was quite simple once he thought about it. "I haven't forgotten," he said softly. "I was hungry. Mostly for power and when you're that starved, you glut. I was just as much an addict then as I am today except for a different drug. I was always in love with you but there was that hunger riding me compelling me to do things that would hurt you. This isn't an excuse only an explanation. I never loved those women. I wanted their worship and the power that came from their devotion. It was...."
He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "It was more potent and rich that way. Prayers and sacrifices were all well and good but they were nothing like the devotion of the god-touched. Does that make sense?"