"I know." He brought his knees up and wrapped his arms around them. "I know I'm a selfish prick." He sighed. He'd give anything for Malia to still be here with him, but the hard fact was that she was gone. Withdrawn, so it wasn't like she was just taking a leave of absence. She was gone. Which meant she probably wasn't coming back.
"She's the only thing keeping me sane, Allison. You know our rooms in the dorm were right next to each other. And I don't know how many nights she must have heard me through the walls, because I'd wake up screaming, and she was already there." How was he supposed to function without her? How was he supposed to give a damn about anything.