[nervous laugh] I dunno. It's all of that, I guess. But it's something else that's supposed to be part of like 'normal life' I guess and I feel like it's just something else I have to pretend to make someone else happy and what's expected of me and it shouldn't be that way, right? Or should it? I just don't know. I thought I was doing my relationship right and I knew people didn't like my choices with the rest of my life but I was happy and now I'm just second guessing everything.