Even though his arms were tight around Sirius, he felt cold and like he was alone in the world right then. He listened the other words, and knew that the other man was going to be angry for a while. He knew that Sirius didn't understand what it was like to be so utterly denied of what he wanted for so long- at least, Remus thought he knew that he listened. His eyes were getting wet again, and he hated it as he swallowed instead. "He looked at me... as if he knows everything in my head. As if he knows what I look like naked, in ever sense. Not just...literally," he said softly, not sure if the undercurrents of sexuality were his own doing or the Chancellor's. He didn't moved, thought, refusing to let go of the other man.
"I thought. I thought I was getting what I wanted for the first time. I thought I was going to have a future I thought was impossible. I was selfish, impulsive and I didn't weigh the matter," he said, knowing fully Sirius would have things to say about that.