Sirius' hand curled around Remus' upper arm, making a move to push him away before he heard the shutters close and lock and felt the press of Remus' body against his own. After that, he was letting out a soft, relieved noise and returning the kiss without any abandon. He had thought he had lost Remus this morning, but he was here now. He was here and safe and pressing himself against Sirius and Sirius couldn't deny him this because he wanted it too. He wanted it more than he cared to admit. His mind began to thrust explanations upon him for all this, but he didn't take heed to any of them. Instead, he shut himself down and let himself just respond.
When Remus pulled back though, he sucked in a rattling breath, his eyes fluttering open as he let out a choked laugh. Don't go. How often had Sirius made that request of him this past week? How much had he begged and pleaded with Remus to stay? It felt like a slap in the face and his bitter laugh said as much. He found himself nodding though, agreeing to all of this. To staying despite the fact that Remus hadn't done the same for him. To helping him now despite the fact that he had tried before it had gotten this bad. "Yes." he agreed in a rasped voice. "Just--Merlin--take this fucking uniform off. I can't stand it. I can't look at you in it." Sirius replied, voice tight, fingers curling into the material of his top and giving a tug. "I hate you." he hissed angrily, gripping all the more. "I fucking hate you Remus. I hate you. I hate you." he repeated, voice spiraling out of control and breaking as he shook a little before he shook his head. "Such an idiot, such a fucking idiot." he said in a harsh whisper. "Why do you have to be so daft? You should have listened to me. I'm not a complete and utter moron. I do know some things." he said, looking angry and hurt all at once. He didn't know how he felt. He was tired and confused and hungry. He didn't know what he even wanted right now. He just knew that everything was completely fucked and he wanted to just wake up in his bed at Hogwarts and tell Remus all about this rubbish nightmare he was currently living.