Erin S. Troy (erintroy) wrote in novsila_rpg, @ 2015-01-16 16:41:00 |
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Entry tags: | ! thread, erin troy, plot: stalker, roger davies |
WHO Erin Troy
WHAT Breaking Down
WHERE Falcons Pitch - her office
WHEN Friday Evening
RATING PG-13 | Trigger: Stalking
STATUS Open or Narrative.
If things could get any worse, Erin didn't think that was possible. She felt as though her whole life was falling apart and no matter what she did she was going about everything the wrong way. She'd tried so hard to be happy on her birthday, to enjoy it, but learning that Mandy had been attacked because of her, and that now Em and Demi were getting owls, there just wasn't much more that she could take. Erin felt like she was to blame for everything, it was her fault.
Reading the owl from Michael Corner for the 6th time she felt like maybe she had made a huge mistake by not telling everyone, but why would she want to? It was hard enough to deal with every single day, with the fact that her privacy had been broken and she had no hope of feeling safe no matter what or where she went, being strong was starting to be something that she was pretty sure she'd never be able to do again. Erin was simply put a wreck. She'd managed to keep herself from crying, but eventually she just couldn't do it anymore.
As tears started to force themselves out she folded the letter from Corner and put it to the side as she tried to focus on work, she actually had work to do, there was a match tomorrow at the Magpie's pitch and she knew she'd be going. She had some paperwork left for the match and while she looked at it and tried to focus on it, it wasn't working. Her eyes were too blurry and her body just felt like it was going to fall apart from lack of sleep and the general constant fear she felt every second of every day. "Get a grip." Erin told herself as she took a shaky breath. "You'll be okay, it'll be okay..." No it wasn't going to be okay... nothing was okay, Erin somehow went from being the person terrified to being the person to blame for everyone, everything anyone else felt was her fault. Mandy, Demi, Conrad, her brother, Ryan, Cassie, Em, everyone... Every single piece of pain someone else felt because of this was her fault. It was all her fault.
Breaking into tears she started shaking, her whole body was just shaking, she could barely pull herself together as she pulled her legs to her as she hugged them to her letting her head her knees as she just let out the sobs that so desperately wouldn't stay in.