Lot nodded absently agreeing silently with everything he was saying, knowing that this was not simply a light hearted everyday sin but one of the biggest. And even if he hadn't believed in God or been raised to fear the idea of him evenly vaguely this still would have sat heavy as lead inside inside gut. Of course he hadn't expected the man beside him to simply turn and say 'This is an easy thing to absolve yourself of you are simply beating yourself up over an event long passed'
"I wish to care for another woman," he admitted and even though he wanted it he felt ashamed to say it and it was enough to make him question if he regretted saying the words, "I know a man cannot ponder and soak in his sins every moment of his life but I worry that it is disrespectful to my wife's memory, that it would make her think that I didn't love her as much as I did but I did love her, I do love her," he stressed "But I have also come to care somewhat deeply for another," he swallowed the lump forming in his throat, "Is it unjust of me to want this?"