PRIVATE.
I think it'd require things not trying to capture or kill us every week.
I had people who believed in me enough to argue on my behalf. My first assignment out of the Academy was as a test pilot though.. not on a ship.
Once you lose people who are under your command, you grow up real fast. Ended up throwing myself into my work, into ship life, and was lucky enough to have some good mentors.
Yeah, or who they tried to. It... was disturbing. I was on a planet once where the residents captured me and did something similar.. pulled illusions out of my mind. It wasn't a great experience. Which may be an understatement. I suppose it makes me extra suspicious and also extra uneasy..