Pointy Cupcakes? lol
These felt pretty on purpose. Nobody else died, but they didn't do anything fun to the people who ate them or I'd think I was just really unlucky with mine. I guess one bonus to here is that things only last for a week at the most. Either they kill you or the reset happens and it's all gone. I don't know of anything that stuck, but I haven't been here long.
They were miserable but you sound like you didn't like it much either. And you say they had a life before like you didn't? We don't have to talk about all of this now, it can wait for the talking. But I barely had a life before I did my training too. I was too young to really know any different.
It's all going to be the same when you go back, is what people tell me. Not that it helps knowing it's waiting, but you won't miss anything. I don't know if that's good or bad.