Re: Obi-Wan Kenobi
The alcohol could be blamed for Stephen's loose lips, but what really got him opening up was Obi-Wan himself... there was a simplicity to him, a calmness, and a lack of ego that bypassed his own ego and made it easier to lower his defenses. It was nice having one person he could be honest with, somebody to hear his confessions, and in the noisy atmosphere of this bar Stephen was confident that their conversation wasn't being heard.
"Me? A Jedi?" Stephen scoffed at the idea and took another sip. A ridiculous thought, really. Maybe on the surface it looked like he was, but internally was a different matter. As a surgeon, he'd grown callous while focusing on his own skill and achievements, not letting himself care for the patients he saved and being a dick to just about everybody else, all the while letting his attachments to material objects like his penthouse, his collection of expensive watches, his fast cars, run amok. Christine's death (in this world) helped to realign his priorities, realize how good she'd been to and for him, and softened his heart with compassion. It was force of habit that prevented him from showing this side of himself, but he liked to tell himself he was getting better. It might be slow, but he was learning.
However, it made him wonder... and since Obi-Wan was in a chatty mood, Stephen would ask, "If you form attachments, do you loose your ability to wield the Force?"
Deep down inside, Stephen also knew sex wasn't the answer, but he still wasn't willing to take the real steps yet that would actually give him fulfillment... vulnerability and trust, for example. That was the 'curse' of being intelligent, Stephen thought.... self-delusion was much more difficult. A smile cracked on his face, and then a chuckle at Obi-Wan's you do you comment, because that wasn't something he usually said, but it made sense that he got it from Yelena.
He then glanced down at the point of contact, where Obi-Wan's hand touched Stephen's shoulder, then the glance rose to the other man's face... and before he had time to censor himself, he asked, "How about you?" He realized that could be taken multiple different ways, so after a pause, he added, "Instead of Loki, I mean? Would you be interested?" He then winked.