PRIVATE.
At the risk of sounding maudlin, no one is sorrier than I am for expecting that it would be so easy. It isn't only You must have had a better relationship with your mother. You're lucky for that. I recall that you were cross when I spoke of her, but cheap shots are... cheap shots. I apologize for that. That should put a tidy bow on all the things to be sorry about, yes?
The rest sounds halfway hopeful. Did you hit your head? Shall I bring Thori by for bonding if you're feeling particularly agreeable?