PRIVATE.
Seems to me that if a relationship is too easy then someone isn’t being honest. But what do I know? I’ve never been in a real one.
It’s not that I think I’m undeserving compared to other people. It’s more that I know how much of a mess I am. I’m too complicated. I’m selfish. And I’d be afraid that in trying to love someone, I might inadvertently hurt them with my ego, my lies, and my … difficult nature. And that’s the opposite of love, isn’t it?
Knowing that another Loki managed to traverse all of that though. It makes me wonder. Maybe it’s just me. Perhaps I’m defective.
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And you are too hard on yourself. People admire you. They respect you. Of course, they accept you. You gave up everything to save everyone else. That wipes the slate clean for them. Maybe it’s not enough in your mind, but you’d be hard pressed to find someone who thought you still had penances to pay. And if you wanted to be in love? You’d have the pick of everyone here.