PRIVATE.
I don’t know if I do. I kind of liked her without it.
It wasn’t embarrassment.
[…]
It wasn’t entirely embarrassment. But I know people respond rashly when they’re emotional. And I recognize that I might have done the same thing if I were in Julia’s position. The shame is less that I let my guard down and more that I … thought something else was going on. Sort of. But I see my foolishness in that now. That was impossible without her shade. But because she didn’t have her shade I felt like it was safer.