Bedivere couldn't bring himself to look at her, even though he felt a sense of triumph over the fact she now saw Evan as Bedivere always did. As poisonous as rosier's words had been, they had still held a bit of truth. And he knew with that innate knowledge one could only have when they were at their most self aware that he would always be trying to overcome Rosier's poisonous words.
Moving a bit he pressed a kiss to Kenzie's hand trapped between his. "I love you too, Kenz. I love every beautiful thing about you, but I can't stand knowing I'll always be hurting you, making you worry. I'll always be first to fight, to be angry. And... you have to know I'll be following Gawain, either as a hitwizard or as an Auror. I'll be in danger all the time, and... I don't think I can do that to you."